Wednesday, 16 January 2013

Making The Choice

Today marks two years since we lost another child.  It's a strange thing to think about - days like this conger up all kinds of emotions: grief, sorrow, 'what ifs', a deep ache and a whole mix of emotions.  Having been through a form of depression I know that today has potential to send me downwards.  Malcolm and I have talked about this, we have the day off to be together after someone suggested that these 'anniversaries' could be a place to positively acknowledge our loss and to actually think positively that our little ones are safe with Jesus.  Even though we are working hard to make this positive it isn't easy so this morning the challenge is to make the choice - to hold on to God.  To hold on to Him being the Lifter of our heads, calling to mind His faithfulness and promises.  Looking to Him and Him alone.  So today is a choice to either look at our empty hands, of who we are not able to hold today or to look at the great 'Who' that we do have and all that He gives us and means to us.......