Friday, 17 October 2008

Jesus went that far for me.......

Ever been locked out?
This morning we shut the door to our house, looked at one another and realised that between us we had a car key but no house key - I rummaged through my bag desperate to find the house keys to no avail. Fortunately we have had some work done on our bathroom and we knew that we could get a key from our builder - but not until several hours later!
What was strange is that we still owned the property, it still belonged to us but for those hours we couldn't get access! It felt weird - we didn't need to go home as we were at work but if we had of needed to or wanted to we couldn't!
Sometimes I feel like that with my relationship with God - He is there, I still belong to Him, there is no question that He is Lord of my life but I feel like I am 'locked out' unable to break through and enter in to all the things that He has for me.
This week I have been reading more sermons by Smith Wigglesworth and he really is straight down the line - he calls a spade, a spade but I can't quite grasp that if the Bible says things then why doesn't God seem to do what we think His word is saying, why is it that at times I feel locked out - like the blessing is not for me.

This afternoon my husband and I sat and watched two DVD sessions by Louie Giglio on Hope and where is God when life hurts the most - I would recommend anyone to get them but warn you to watch with a tissue box near at hand - I did cry and so did my husband! Louie pointed out that Jesus said we will have trouble in this lifetime - and we do but he went on to point out that when the depths are at their deepest to look at the cross - he explained that when you look at the cross even if everything is falling apart you will realise afresh that Jesus died for you because He loves you....... tonight at the music practice we sang a song that has a line 'I stand forgiven at the cross.' It was hard not to weep all over again - He went to those lengths for you and for me and even though life is tough, even though this week has been an exhausting struggle, even though I have felt really low - noone can alter the fact that He loves me (even when it is hard to feel it!) indeed He went that far, to the cross for me!


Dan Bowen said...

Thats quite an awesome prophetic enactment of I think how many of us as Christians feel sometimes!! That the wonderful place is ours - yet access is denied! But surely we've got to see that's a demonic lie haven't we - because the veil WAS torn in two from TOP to bottom - from GOD to man and will never ever be sealed up again!

And such a dramatic truth is something the devil is desperate to shield from us and lie to us about! So I think what happened to you is an awesome way of God saying; "Hey - this is how you feel - but it's a lie!".

In fact it seems to me that its like you feel you left your key inside the front door but if you'd just look up, God has torn the whole roof of your house and you can just hop up a step ladder and be in! Because no locked door is going to keep you from your Beloved Father!!

Nick Cameron said...

Hey thanks Dan - awesome comment!
It is so true isn't it - we seem to rely too much on what we feel rather than actually our position and the truth that He has won it all for us!

I loved your analogy of the roof being torn off - but it is true - the Father wants us to enter in to all the fullness of what He has won for us - He would never lock us out - He has saved us to be free and to be free indeed!